Tuesday, December 13, 2016

In Full Swing

So I have started the journey for my doctoral degree. I'm in week 2 of a 5 week qualification course called  DOC/700 "Developing the Doctoral Identity." As long as I make a B or higher, I can move forward. It is a lot of reading and some of the material is really challenging. But everybody keeps telling me that if I made it through a master's degree I can make it through a doctoral degree. I'm happy that I am doing this but it is a lot of work. But I just keep imagining myself at graduation wearing my doctoral regalia. That is what keeps me going.

This is the cap and gown for graduating with a doctorate degree.  I want this in the worst way and I'm gonna get it! !!:

Wednesday, October 5, 2016

Off To A Great Start

OK so I got accepted into the Doctoral Program of a university. I'm doing it all online, but the school is an actual "brick and mortar" institution.So before I could decide, I was going back and forth between the PhD and the Ed.D program. The PhD in education is about the philosophy of education and how people learn and cognition and all that and there is a heavier emphasis on research. The Ed.D which is the Doctorate of Education involves putting it all into practice, it's for people who want a more hands-one leadership role.  Which one was right for me? So after doing some research and deliberation I decided to do the Ed.D which is officially called Doctor of Education in Educational Leadership with a Specialization in Curriculum and Instruction. What a mouthful! Up until this point, earning my Master's Degree has been my life's biggest accomplishment, so earning my Doctorate will be astronomical!! I'm scared and excited at the same time. I know it is going to be tons of work but this is what I decided that I want for myself and I'm willing to do what it takes. It's definitely going to require some time management because I'm still teaching preschool and doing beauty consultations.  That's why earning this degree online was the best choice. So anyway, yesterday I began my doctoral workshops to prepare for my courses. The first workshop which started yesterday is called Doctoral Success Orientation which involved completing my profile on the school's website and exploring the school of advanced studies helps to supports student academic development. So basically I learned what my resources are, and who I can link up with for assistance and guidance. Important stuff, so it was good.

Friday, September 9, 2016

Update on Me

I'm a preschool teacher. Today I had 2 new students join the class. It will take some time for them to get used to the routine and classroom rules, but they are good kids.  There are days when some kids act like little shepherds for the devil.Like when one kid decides to go around punching other children. We talked to his mother about that when she picked him up.  I've learned to take deep breaths and use my redirecting skills to the best of my abilities.  

In other news, I am working on picking an institution to earn my doctorate degree. The university where I earned my master's degree does not have a doctoral program for the area I am interested in. It's all good, I kinda wanted a change because I also got my bachelor's degree from that same university. Plus I am looking for a program where I can do everything online, because in addition to being a teacher I am also an independent beauty consultant. So earning my degree online is really the best choice for me.

Saturday, June 18, 2016

Coffee in the City

The sun has long gone down.  Full moon tonight. Summer breeze blowing through the trees in Huntsville, Alabama. I'm sitting on the patio of a Starbucks listening to a mixture of traffic, jazz music, and the chatter of other customers. Reminiscing on the mocha frappuccino I had.  Just chilling in my black and white jumpsuit and my curly afro puff slightly to the side of my head, giving me some extra attitude.  Black teardrop-shaped earrings dangling. I'm in a more upscale area near Crestwood Medical Center. The Rolex store is right next door. The parking lot is full of BMW's, Corvettes, Hummers, and Dodge Challengers. The loud roar of the occasional passing motorcycle sends a chill up my spine. Apparently, my mom used to ride on the back of my dad's motorcycle when they were dating. (It's hard to picture her as a biker chick.) On this summer night, I watch the hustle and bustle of the busy street. Another patron talks to her friend about an incompetent co-worker. It's Saturday night but I have no plans. I'm not really interested in the nightclubs anymore. I'm more into bookstores, coffeehouses and occasionally a bar. A military plane just flew over, possibly going over to the Redstone Arsenal. I just needed to get out of the house. Ok, a guy on a bicycle almost got hit by a car. The patio umbrellas flapping in the breeze. A roach just crawled by, but we're outside so I'm good. I initially thought about drinking my coffee inside but their a/c is too cold for me, the evening breeze was more agreeable to me. As the evening draws to a close, I think about the road ahead of me and the decisions I have to make. But no worries. Life is too short to spend worrying. Enjoy the moments. Goodnight.

Saturday, April 16, 2016

My Concerns As a Teacher

I am a school teacher. Preschool to be exact. I'm just getting into it. But I've worked in areas that were relate-able. I used to work in school nutrition for a school system just across the state line. Sometimes I would visit the classrooms and talk to the kids.  That's what lead me to child development.  Being a teacher, you not only help your students learns but you learn many things as well.  One thing that concerns me is what appears to be a lack of imagination and creativity in today's young children. I believe that it is a result of children being given I-pads and electronic devices to play their games and so they aren't exercising their imaginations or being creatively stimulated.  They never take the initiative to go to the art center and draw, when they do it's just a few scribbles here and there. We provide them with a giant container filled with crayons of all colors and they are not inspired to use them and create something, anything.  As a teacher I really have to pull the creativity out of them.  I sit with them and I draw and color with them as a way to give them some sort of push. My co-teacher and I were talking about this and another issue is that kids are not learning to use a dictionary or a thesaurus.  I'm talking about by hand. Opening up that dictionary and using the alphabet to look up words. These things are online so that makes it faster and easier, this is true.  But what if you are somewhere without internet access or without electricity?  I remember reading an article where someone was asking of it even makes sense to teach handwriting anymore because everything is done electronically.  Advancements in technology are often seen as something positive. But there is always a dark side to progress and I believe this falls in there.

Friday, December 25, 2015

What are we doing for New Year's Eve?

Ok people. We made it through another Christmas.  Now comes the next question. What are we doing for New Year's Eve? One of my gal pals messaged me about a masquerade party that she is planning to go to. The tickets are $60.00.  I just told her I'll let her know. But the truth is, I really don't feel like spending a whole of money to get in anywhere. You don't need to spend lots of money to have fun. I'm cool to just get with a few friends and chill somewhere. So I talked to my other gal pal and she had not made any plans but was on her way to a house party and would let me know if she heard about anything for New Year's.  I told her flat out that I'm not trying to shell out a lot of money and she agreed. This is my thing: If we go out, I would be fine to go somewhere for free and buy drinks. Or we could pick up a few bottles and go gather at somebody's house. It is not that deep. What matters is having fun. So as of now, I still don't know what I am doing. Hopefully I'll figure something out in the next few days.

Wednesday, December 23, 2015



I'm in Bermuda, visiting my family for Christmas. I was born in Alabama, but I was raised on the island of Bermuda. My mother is Bermudian and both my parents live here as well as most of my mother's family.  I haven't gone to visit any of my old friends yet. One of the people I go to  see is my best friend from elementary school. We were both book worms and true friends. There was a clique of girls who made fun of us and even tried to cause conflict between us many times. In art class and we loved to sing that song "Freak Like Me" by Adina Howard while we drew our pictures.  We were too young to understand the lyrics at the time, ha ha ha ha!   We also attended the Bermuda College but didn't see each other that much. She would later complete her education in D.C. doing her Olivia Pope thing.  My other gal pal is the friend I became close to during my days attending the Bermuda College. We were together every day.  We often collaborated so we could wear the same colors to school. We went to a nightclub called Club 40 almost every weekend. I couldn't stand the majority of her other friends. They would run up on us and then act they didn't see me there. You could at least say hi. When I moved back to Alabama, she later moved to New York to finish her education. She came to see me two Thanksgivings in a row. I am her son's godmother. Both of these women were to be my bridesmaids. But  I broke off the engagement because the guy turned out to be a liar and a  low-down piece of s**t.  My other friend is a guy that also went to the Bermuda College. I was mean to him at first because I felt that he was trying to get too close and I already had a boyfriend. But we became cool later after I danced with him at Club 40.  Around that time  he started seeing a girl. But he would come up to the student lounge because he knew I was there. We would look out the window and see her walking around campus and he would be like "Look. She looking for me." I later heard she was talking about me when she was in KFC. (Really? KFC?)  He still claims it wasn't true. (Whatever. How would he know?) They  would later go to another school in Canada together where she would  break up with him to "screw other guys".  He knows I'm on the island right now and he invited me to come over for a drink. But I'm not going over there because I don't really feel that I need to.

I have no interest in seeing anybody from high school. A lot of them had a real mean streak and I couldn't wait to graduate and  get away from them. What really pisses me off is how a lot of them run up to my mom when they see her talking about "Hi Mrs. H., tell Kristin I said hi." With that fake crap knowing we were never friends. Yeah, you think I don't know?

We went by a wholesale store today to pick up food items to cook for Christmas and I saw one of the employees rolling a joint behind one of the trucks. He turned out to be a classmate of mine from primary school (elementary school). I didn't say anything to him because I'm sure he wouldn't have remembered me. I don't know how he would have reacted.

Right now I'm feeling more self-conscious because I have gained some weight. However I have made a new commitment to myself and I am exercising and eating healthy.  So I am actively working towards a goal of health. I feel like everybody is looking at me and judging me. But at the same time, I feel like nobody cares.